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Captain Lorth
Needa stepped warily off the shuttle’s boarding ramp, waving
away exhaust steam with one hand and supporting the bag on his
shoulder with the other.
Once he was
out of the shuttle’s shadow, the bright sunlit hit him and
blinded him for a moment. When his eyes focused again, he saw
the large crowd of people who had gathered to watch the shuttles
land on their planet’s soil. They smiled, and waved, and
ran up to greet the Imperials. Needa cringed slightly at their
display of gratitude. He appreciated the friendliness of the natives,
but at the same time, it made him uncomfortable. It was regrettably
irregular that the Imperials were welcomed as heroes, and he hadn’t
had the chance to get used to it yet.
Needa climbed
up onto the walkway to glance around the docks.
"Lorth!"
He whirled
in the direction of the voice, and saw her coming towards him.
She wasn’t running, but she strode toward him with a huge
grin. He smiled back and dropped his bag to wrap his arms around
her, feeling all his tensions melt away. "Hello, Starway."
He brushed
back her mop of shiny chestnut hair and kissed her briefly, unwilling
to make too much of a spectacle in public no matter how glad he
was to see her.
Of course,
Starway didn’t care who was watching. "I missed you,
baby," she beamed, sliding an arm around him to pinch his
butt. She picked up his bag. "How’s work?"
"Exhilerating,
as always. How long were you waiting for me?"
"I’ve
been on planet about a tenday. The troops you left here are still
making arrests everywhere; it’s all over the news. You really
cleaned this place up, babe."
He nodded
in satisfaction. "Sooner or later the Rebels will realize
that there’s nowhere left for them to hide. Now let’s
get out of this crowd."
"Come
on. We can catch this bus back to my hotel."
The arm around
his waist loosened his step. Needa sighed contentedly to himself
as they left the docks behind them.
* * *
Starway knew
the topic would come up that night.
All day, they
had been practically high on each other, chatting about any meaningless
thing that entered their heads. But now, with everything dark,
and silent except for the rush of traffic outside the hotel window,
she felt calm enough to reflect on bigger things. Without now
to preoccupy her mind, the whole future thing surfaced again.
They lay side
by side in the hotel bed, staring into the blackness where the
ceiling was. She turned her head to face him. "Lorth?"
He looked
at her. Without his uniform on, and his hair tousled, and the
dim light masking his permanent worry line, he looked years younger.
"Mmm?"
"Are
you happy? With your life, I mean. And where you’re going,"
she added, before he could give her a stupid answer.
He could hear
a bit of discomfort in her voice, from ignoring this subject for
too long. He knew where it was going. "You want to have a
baby."
Starway’s
eyes widened with surprise at him taking the thing head-on. He
usually tiptoed around delicate conversations until he could ease
himself in. She cleared her throat. "No no. I mean, I don’t
want to have a kid. And I don’t not want to either. But
it’s not really a question of what we want, is it? It’s
a question of what we can pull off."
"All
right. Suppose- hypothetically, of course- that we did want to
start a family. Fairly soon." He found her hand under the
sheets and held it. "We’re in the middle of a war right
now, Starway. A war that’s beginning to heat up again."
"...I
know."
"And
you also know that a Star Destroyer isn’t something the
Emperor keeps in the mothballs. Besides routine missions, we are
constantly being called upon for defense, attacks, whatever. When
I do get a leave, it’s most often nowhere near home, and
you are forced to hop on a transport to wherever the Navy decides
to set down." His voice softened but he went on. "And
in a war, there’s always the threat of- of-"
Starway’s
eyes heated up with moisture. "I know," she whispered.
"I’m
sorry. It’s bad enough that I do this to my wife, I don’t
know if I could subject a child to it, as well."
"You’re
right." She sniffled and shut her eyes. Not that her heart
was completely shattered; talking about anything serious just
made her emotional. In a moment she felt his fingers tighten around
her hand. "We can’t. That’s just too bad, but
oh well." She opened her eyes to wink at him. "I can
steal my brother’s kids from time to time."
Lorth chuckled.
"Why, so the monsters can remind you that we made the right
choice?"
She elbowed
him, suppressing a giggle. "Shut up and go to sleep, Captain."
* * *
Barely a month
had passed.
She couldn’t
believe it. It hadn’t even been a month since she was last
with her husband, just a couple dozen days ago they had been holding
hands and bickering and taking walks, everything that happy couples
were supposed to be doing...
Starway stared
helplessly at the guilty-looking young officer, shocked tears
streaming from her eyes.
Her hand placed
itself over her belly, swollen ever so slightly.
Well, Lorth....
...You didn’t
go out without leaving your mark.